Pretty scared.
I can’t lie.

It’s not that I think I can’t do this job, cause I have done this job for years. 

Teaching is the only thing I’ve ever wanted to do.
I’m just scared.

That’s normal right?
People get nervous when something new comes along?
Something they don’t know, when they don’t know what’s coming.
Nerves are a normal emotion.

I half know what is coming.
I know I can stand in front of kids and teach.
Well, I think I can.
I’m so scared I’m not going to be good.
I’m scared I won’t do well.
I only want this. 

I want to be a teacher and a mam.
(Becoming a mam is a long way off yet, let me do one thing at a time!)


One thought on “Anxious.

  1. harrietspringbett says:

    Hey Steph, this is totally normal. Something that helped me a lot when I felt like this was to say to yourself that the kids are more scared than you. They are at your mercy (kind of)! Another thing: remember that you’re allowed to have bad days, like everyone in every job. But this doesn’t mean you’re doing your job badly. A teacher needs to question him/herself, so it’s a good thing that you’re feeling this way – it shows you’re sensitive, which means you’ll be sensitive to the needs of the kids. Stand up there and be yourself. And enjoy!


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