Anxious.

Nervous.
Pretty scared.
I can’t lie.

It’s not that I think I can’t do this job, cause I have done this job for years. 

Teaching is the only thing I’ve ever wanted to do.
I’m just scared.

That’s normal right?
People get nervous when something new comes along?
Something they don’t know, when they don’t know what’s coming.
Nerves are a normal emotion.

I half know what is coming.
I know I can stand in front of kids and teach.
Well, I think I can.
I’m so scared I’m not going to be good.
I’m scared I won’t do well.
I only want this. 

I want to be a teacher and a mam.
(Becoming a mam is a long way off yet, let me do one thing at a time!)